Regrets

I feel I must apologize for the sudden mopey posts. It is so hard to bear my own personal pains and my child's sorrows as well. My son is being bullied at school. He made what he thought was a good friend. A few months later, the friend's mother realized we were not part of the popular group and told her son not to play with mine. (Her son literally told my son this.) That would have been okay; however, this other boy has instead turned mean and ugly toward my son.

It's heartbreaking to see my second grader have to deal with this ugliness. My son attends a private school and most everyone is more rich and important than my family so telling anyone about our issue I don't think would matter. Don't get me wrong, it is a great school, but this particular family has been babied all year. It's so obvious and disgusting they might as well make a golden statute in honor of this family. And yet here I am, watching my son come home in tears because of hateful words and actions by this other "perfect" kid.

Also, a few months ago the worst thing I could think could happen to me did. I can't even talk about it, but I question my entire life. I never felt regret until now and now I regret pretty much everything. I used to think oh darn I made this and this wrong decision and now it's like why did anyone even allow me to make decisions.

I keep hoping that the end of a school year and start of Summer will ease some of the burdens. I'm just so sad all of the time.